I've been feeling really alone lately, and it's odd because I'm usually surrounded by people. I find it fascinating that so many of us have these feelings so many times in our lives and yet we can never fill that void for each other or really make the person feel better. I've felt like this many times before and it usually passes it's just some sort of funk I fall into. Even weirder is that when I feel like this, I want to be alone ... a little ironic, I think so.
It's one of those days where nothing is right with the world and everyone is stupid. I'm usually a pretty positive person and I strongly believe that positivity breeds positive things and as so with negative. These are the times where I need to be creative I need to write , or paint, or even reorganize something. I need to learn to be happier with myself and I want to improve myself. I mean what a waste of life if you never strive to be a better person or do extrordinary things. There are always things I want to strive to be better at for whether it be my health, or patience. Maybe that's the problem that lately I feel like I haven't been evolving, I've just been existing. I want to be a better wife, friend, daughter, worker and christian. Sometimes it's hard because I feel like I'm evolving and other people are devolving (if that's even a word) and like I'm outgrowing the people around me, and I understand that this probably sounds so pretentious but I'm sure other people have felt this way before... I'm just saying it.
